Open curtains but the shades are down

(3 curtain calls | opening night)

Subject:	Everything needs a little getting used to.
Time:	8:35 pm.
Mood:	crappy.

There's a lot going on. I went for a looooong run to get my mind of of stuff yesterday but it didn't work.
School is taking major getting used to. My classes are all really good and I have early release which is something new and different but I feel weird being there. It's like I'm not there when I'm there and I can't believe I'm going and leaving there when i'm doing so. I'm constantly thinking about everything but what I need to be focussing on, and I'm afraid of doing anything wrong. Yeah I know it's weird.
Although the classes are great, it feels like everyone has them opposite of me which stinks. If I have it first semester they have it second and vise versa. oh well, I still see people.
There is so much to do for class office but if we do it right, it will be fun.
NHS starts up next week, new advisors and new officers which will be interesting. From what I've heard, they have fun things planned. Could it possibly be entertaining? haha
I start work next week too....I don't want to. I've gotten used to this whole not working thing and I like it, a lot. But I really need money.
So when/is Godspell going to happen? I've been counting on it.

My mom is making me take and SAT /ACT prep course which starts monday night and I'm scared. I know i'm not going to do well on them when I re-take them anyways because I'm awful at testing, worse then that, I'm awful at geometry and timed writing. I'm screwed.

I miss people but they don't miss me which is what I expected.

People are already starting to unravel. Who am I to stand in the way? I wish it wasn't like this and I wish it was me, and I wish some things never happend, but I suppose it all happens for a reason. Even if it could be nothing bigger than what it was. Thanks for making it awkward. You have my blessing, not like it mattered anyway. Plus, you'll probably never see this.

(opening night)

Time:	11:09 am.
Mood:	creative.

It sounds like everyone and their mom got an ipod, ipod speakers, lap top, digital camera or a cell phone. Haha...
I on the other hand did not which is totally fine.
I got the sweetest mittens from my sister I have ever seen. So warm and colorful. That is what makes me happy, despite what my family and anyone else thinks.
Of course the anual gift cerificates and such as well.

It was a quiet christmas this year compared to most years. And it felt kind of empty too. My Uncle is getting married so he was with his fiance, my aunt went to Italy with her husband and his side of the family, my other aunt is in China, my Bubie and dog are gone, and the rest of my family is Jewish.(Yay Hannukah!)

It was a nice one though. Steph came home, mom dad ethan and I were here already (obviously) and we all had fun being siblings/ a family. Ate enough food to last throughout all of 2005 (which is perfect timing for 2006)

New Years is almost apon us and I always get all "Okay. So these are my goals for the next year!" and then I write them down and everything and I either lose the piece of paper or get too busy or whatever to fulfill those goals. It really shows how much they mean to me..haha.

Hope everyone had a nice holiday :)

To another year!